I am in the same boat bud depression sucks along with anxiety through the roof that comes and goes. Loss of interest of things that used to give me great joy just don't do it for me anymore and the dreaded insomnia. I have a awesome gaming rig I am currently moving into my closet in the bedroom right now since I watch movies and TV more the gaming by a long shot, Plus the Smooth Video Project will work better a lot better on my gaming rig.
Crying could be kicked off over a stupid movie or it could be kicked off from thinking about my brother or father who have both passed away. But the suicidal thoughts are fleeting though since I could not do that to my wife "who happens to be my best friend" or what is left of my small family. I see a therapist every 3 months just to talk about what is on my mind. I do think it helps a little bit. The best Therapist is my wife of 20years. Sorry to hear your wife is not sympathetic to your feelings
Anyway do not be afraid to cry a little bit........I know, I used to say to myself I am a strong guy crying is for wussies.
I could not have been more wrong...after holding in your feelings after say a real bad week a good cry does surprisingly help I think
But do not give up on yourself. I have good days and bad days. believe it or not helping others say here on the forums or someone broke down on the street, helping some elderly person at the supermarket etc seems to help me a lot. Funny sorta when I am the one that feels like I need the help more then everyone else.
Talk to someone about how you feel....professional or a friend to start with, but above all else do not give up. feel free to PM me if you have any questions or you just need to talk. I go for many walk at night with my cell phone in one hand and my thoughts slipping through my other hand.
Ohh the HDMI cable in my gaming room was hooked up to a mini HDMI adapter......I went to plug in my HD 7750 and I had no video. Turns out the freaking male end of the HDMI cable broke my HDMI output on my hd7750 by pushing the pins out of the HDMI output on my hd7750 breaking it. I verified it was the HDMI cable by starting to plug it into a hd 6450 i have sitting around and it started pushing the pins out. SOB!@!