So yesterday in front of my house, I saw an old guy in a rattletrap pickup truck blow by a pizza delivery guy who was trying to make a U-turn. Going about 40 MPH in a 25 MPH zone, "pickup truck guy" passed "pizza delivery guy" on the left with no room for oncoming traffic and not even a twitch on the brake pedal or any regard for letting him complete his maneuver or at least get the hell out of the way.
It goes without saying that the pizza delivery guy's car was barely held together with chewing gum, duct tape, twine, and toothpicks; so neither car was the epitome of class or even confidence of mechanical reliability.
A major pileup in a 25 MPH zone was narrowly avoided, but it would have been a bloody mess if there were any bikers or joggers (or me) in that intersection at that moment.
Ten minutes later, pickup truck guy is now "motorcycle guy" riding his big Harley down my street; it was definitely the same dude, only this time he was moving much more slowly and much more carefully, making the traffic behind him go much more slowly than "pizza guy" was just a few minutes before.
So after a brief WTF moment, I began to think. Just how many of us lead schizophrenic lives from minute to minute? And do we recognize it in ourselves? Or are we oblivious because it's normal behavior at this point?
Risk. Like it or not, we are governed by what we perceive as risks. I have always wondered myself those that suffer from road rage what kind of persons they are in other facets of their lives. Without consequences people would succumb to their baser desires. There are certain artificial constructs (most powerful would be survival, and to procreate) in our mind that keep us in check. To some, it is their sense of morality, freedom, their aim for fame, for acceptance, vanity, rewards, whatnot. But to a very few rare, their brains don't work as quite as well, and well.....
About living two lives, it might just be that we compartmentalize and rationalize our decisions to fit the end that we truly want. It is more like we decide before hand what we want, and we cherry pick our rationalizations for it. In this sense, we might arrive at cognitive dissonance. Not at the level that a pathological liar is able to gymnastically juggle, and believe his own lies, but, nonetheless, we do it to a lesser extent. Think hard the last time you had one of those "rationalizations". It is very to look at yourself, as far as we know, we see ourselves as we want to see ourselves, and thus, we cherry pick so that it matches our conclusion. Sort of picking a jury where they already have a stake on the outcome of the case, and their mind is already made up. They will reach the verdict and they will do so holding many conflicting pieces of facts in their heads.
Such is human nature....